she lives!

its been a couple, or i guess a few weeks since i've written on here. i think thats because they've been very..... challenging, difficult (dare i say terrible?) no not terrible, just quite uncomfortable and unpleasant. mason has been having a very hard time. i cannot explain it, although i have my theories. my little man has been very emotional, impatient, angry. the power struggle in my house has been exhausting. i have fallen short in my consistency and patience. there has been a lot of screaming from both of us, a lot of time outs and many many apologies. i had another revelation a couple of days ago. the word that came to me:aceptance. not the first time that god has flung this word at me (or beaten me over the head with it) in regards to our beautiful son. so i am trudging trying to use the tools that i've been blessed with. ack. i live to try again another day. all of this has taken place at home. at school he is doing well. i get nothing but praises and encouraging words from masons teacher. that he is so mature and respectful at school. he is moving forward and he is doing more pre-reading work and being given more challenging excersices. he has gone through a growth spurt, the clothes that fit a month ago are quite suddenly not fitting as they did before. so he continues growing in many ways, so maybe that accounts for the craziness. growing pains? i know i get a little nutty during times of growth, so why not he?

stephen has really begun to walk in that oh so cute frankenstein toddler way. arms out, trying to find the balance that will keep him from falling on his bottom. i love this age.

there are many babies growing in the bellies of my loved ones bellies. six total, i am so excited to watch my lovely mommy friends grow. some with their firsts, some with their thirds. its an exciting time (don't drink the water or breathe the air, it appears to be contageous!)

freedom house is doing well and we are embarking on phase two, which is the upstairs. it is going to be a step up from downstairs offering one bedroom apartments to those with 6 months or more of sobriety. so although we move forward and feel without a doubt that we are doing what we are supposed to, the money fear visits me. there is a lot to be done before we can open the top floor up, and that takes mulah. it is ok, it will work out. just a little intimidating. we are going into our fourth month of operation and up to this point we have been succesful. i am still amazed that this thing is happening.