this too shall pass

so i'm feeling much MUCH better this week. thanks for all of the love i've recieved from the people that i repeatedly vomitted on last week.

patience, tolerance, love even? these are my goals to be focusing on right now. i believe self awareness & knowledge only take you so far, then you, i, must begin to change & take action. so i'm praying to better prepare myself for the difficult times with my kiddos so that i may give to them the love they deserve and the room to grow & be themselves.

i've decided that when mason returns to school next month i will put him in 3 days a week instead of 5. i feel that he gets so much from SMMS, learns so much that i won't even pretend to know how to teach him. but also that its really important for him to be home with me and his brother. so we'll see how that goes, i mentioned returning to school to him today and he was not happy, really quite unhappy, with the idea. ouch, here comes that mommy guilt crap again :-)

we attempted to do toddler time at the library today sfter swim class - they sing, dance & read books. VERY cool - we made it about halfway. i'm seeng that mason struggles with the unknown(wow i wonder where he gets that??) so i will be thinking about how to best help him out with that. so even though we had to leave the library in a blaze of glory, he wants to try again next week.

more later.....